All right people, I decided to bring in the big cojones. And by that I mean you guys, because maybe an objective person on hte internet with vast knowledge of typing (or less vast, I don't know, something?) would be better at typing me than both me and my type-crazy friends. So, help? I'll put some info from this form I found on the forum below and am very curious what you'll make of it!
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
Well, I'm pretty much a walking contradiction. I'm very sensitive, but very cold-hearted. I care so much, but not at all. I'm very empathetic, but only if I care about someone or if it's a subject that interests me. Also, I'm a person that becomes depressed and lonely quickly if not having people around me constantly, but I feel like I can't focus or exist ever if I'm not alone enough. I feel like I have so many personal attributes that I'm either 50 types at once or none at all and it confuses the hell out of me. It's also very situational and depends on the person I'm near, so that doesn't help either.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Meaning. A goal. SOmething to really care about, to feel alive and to fight for forever more. I need to be excited, I need to be curious, to be challenged and I yearn for a feeling of peace in caring. I knowing that what I'm doing is the right thing, is the thing I should be doing and the thing that is best for me.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
I was invincible, no really. I could do anything, with anyone, anywhere. I was a good person, I was nice and charming and friendly and selfless and always willing to help someone out. I was always positive, had boundless energy and motivation to do anything and had constant insights while being calm and collected all the same. It's mostly the calm thing, the thing where my brain doesn't overflow, but I'm still full of ideaus and excitement.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
Mostly people telling me or letting me know they think they're better than me, or people doing something that I know I'm very bad at and expecting me to be very good at it. This is mostly in the 'being nice' department, I'm very blunt and bordering on rude according to some people and lots of people judge me on the fact that I don't have that fake social thing where I smile and talk about you behind your back. If I've no ideas I could explore, like really this this and that I want but can't do because of some thing that makes for me not being able to do it, that makes me feel pretty inferior. Like everyone around me functions better than me.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
That's a hard one. On one hand I care so so much about how stuff feels to me, if it makes me feel nervous, anxious or angry I really don't want to do it or choose to do it. I choose non-toxic situations that make me feel calm and like I can do anything I set my mind to. But, on the other hand I tend to make decisions based on how much it benefits me. Like if I were picking out a house and I'd look at how loud the street is, how near nature it is, just practical stuff that would make me function better. Because that would make life easier and hence me happier.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
I would like to have control on the total outcome, yes. I tend to arrogantly think I know better and if we don't follow my course, it's going to suck and the project is going to be way less good than it could be and it should be the best it can be. So, needless to say, I'm not the best person to have in your group if you think you know better, because I will fite you.
7) Describe us a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
There was this time where I'd tried for months to master something. It wasn't working and I'd tried any possible way. It. Just. Didn't. Work. BUt I wouldn't give up, I had to master this damn skill. ANd this one day, after months of trying, it worked. I was calm and collected, I thought about what I was doing and I'd all the knowledge and all the partical preparation I could have and there it was. It worked. Just out of the blue. And that is one of the happiest moments I can remember.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorize, to memorize, etc)
I tend to jump right the hell in. I can read and read, but that does very little for me. I have to do something, try something and fail and then turn to the page. Because only when I've seen something work or tried something, can I make sense of otherwise meaningless words.
9) How organized do you to think of yourself as?
Very Unorganized, It's really bad. I loose everything, constantly. I've different systems and stuff for everything, but then I kind of lose track of it or get lazy and then stuff and information is everywhere again.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
I immediately try to understand how it works. I basically analyze everything, it's fun and I need to know how it works. If I don't know how it works, then I'm not very happy. If I have to, I'll look for evidence, but only because I'm forced to in situations where people want more evidence. If it's right it's right and I know it.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
Definitely following what I believe and being myself, I'm not going to give up my sense of justice and my sense of doing what's right and what's me for some group dynamic that doesn't freaking matter.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
I mostly speak before I think, I'm very quick and always have a comeback for everything. SOmetimes I'm a little too quick and I say something incredibly insensitive or stupid when I didn't really mean to. I prefer one on one though, groups confuse me and there's too many people talking. It's hard for me to focus on one thing and then I'm trying to have 5 conversations aft once.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks louder than words?
Mostly, yes. It really depends if I care about said thing and if I'm really tired. I tend to jump into things quickly, things happening or things being said. I'm right there, standing next to it. I really think words have some meaning and can affect people greatly, but in the end it's all talk and actions are way louder than words. An 'I hate you' followed by someone taking care of you, makes the words pretty redundant.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
Fuck it, I'll tape it. I'm going the hell out and I'm having fun, watching TV you can do every day.
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
I obsess about everything and I either do everything at once and never sit still or I can't move because my head is filled with everything tht could go wrong, has gone wrong or is probably gonna go wrong someday. I get overwhelmed by everything that's in my head and everything seems like an endless stream of bad ideas, I strart stressing about if I'm breathing normally, I keep feeling my thumb (is that normal, it is, isn't it?), that sort of stuff. I'm am very awful when I'm stressed and sometimes I just get mad at everything and start yelling for no reason.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
Too freaking obnixious. Come on, look in the mirror. So freaking arrogant, mean to other people, dismissive of everyone or won't see the truth/some other side to a coin. I hate narrow mindedness and I hate feeling like I'm being judged on my every move. Why is it that it's so terrible that I'm sitting on the corner of the table instead of the chair, come the hell on, lighten up would you. I also hate not being able to express myself in a non-restrained way and I dislike not being able to talk to people on a personal level. People being dismissive or shallow or people who plainly don't have anything to their personality. That bored me.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
Yes, life! Life, how it works, people. I like to know what's going on in people's heads, what they're thinking and feeling about stuff. I really want to know what makes people tick, what makes them feel excited and happy, what makes their realtionship work or not work. I dislike casual and practical conversation and am bored byt things that are every day.
18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life.
Practical things. Pretty much anything that means I need to do laundry or make dinner. I don't care for it much, but I need to do them and so I do when I absolutely have to. I like to do fun things and sometimes I can forget that I need to do stuff because I have to. Not everything is awesome, some things are just things and they need to be dealt with.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality ?
My friends think I'm some asshole who really doesn't care about what other people think or feel and only lives to have fun and take advantage of eeverything and everyone. They really think I'm not a nice person and they can't share sensitive things with me, because I will just be harsh to them and hurt them more. They're very wrong, because I'd never do anything to hurt them and I'm always there for them when need be. They confuse my attitude towards people I don't know and things I don't care about with my personality, which is terribly wrong of them and makes me kind of sad. They could trust me with anything, but don't always feel like they can. They'd never call me super empathetic, considerate, polite or nice.
Well, here's my form! I'd really like to hear your thoughts on my MBTI type, my enneagram and my social variant stacking! If there's any questions, I'd love to hear them!
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
Going out, doing stuff! I'm always outside, doing some thing or another. I like doing sports, eating weird cake with my best friend or helping out at shelters. I'm very nature, people and animal oriented and I like to be active, though I can be very lazy and spend my whole day sleeping and doing absolutely nothing.