*casually slides this here because the Enneagram type me thread has been kinda dead* Been feeling indecisive with my instinctual variants. Typers say sp/so or so/sp, tests say I at least have an sx. What do you think? I hope this is a decent questionnaire!
1. What drives you in life? What do you look for?
I'm driven by exploring, whether that's going new places, learning lots or trying new things. Just living for those good feelings, mostly feelings of inspiration, peace, and accomplishment. Enjoying those simple comforts, like hot chocolate and hours of video games. I look for a life of meaning, finding my passion, whether that's in a job or hobby.
2. What do you hope to accomplish in your life?
My dream of traveling-I've always been interested in different cultures. I want to be either a chef or graphic designer. Cooking is satisfying and combines my love of art and cultures. For graphic design, I get to be creative/express myself, and being able to make everyday things like websites, t-shirts and stickers is fascinating. Would be nice to help out the world somehow-I am especially interested in helping animals and the environment.
3. What do you hope to avoid doing or being? What values are important to you?
I think my most important value is being open-minded, whether that's being accepting of people's differences or being able to try new things. Therefore, I don't want to be judgemental. Others are generosity, forgiveness, and understanding. I simply don't want to hurt anyone and I don't want to be without drive.
4. What are your biggest fears (not including phobias)? Why?
I fear missing opportunity-life is short! I fear wasting my potential and similarly, incompetency-I do have a perfectionist side. I fear losing people/animals, losing things, conflict. Even though I'm quiet, I'm clingy. It's weird, sometimes I'm clingy, sometimes I want to be independent. I think the clinginess is more in romance actually, though I did cry a lot on the first day of college. xD
5. How do you want others to see you? How do you see yourself?
Overall I see myself as quiet, easygoing, inquisitive, and peaceful. I hope that others see me as competent, original/creative, adventurous and an overall kind and good person.
6. What makes you feel your best? What makes you feel your worst?
Best-Going new places, being with a couple close friends, doing artsy things, days home alone with music and Netflix, winning and playing games, doing something in my element, good food/drink, being with animals
Worst-Bad grades/failure, being third wheeled, my overall anxiety, repetitive work/being stuck in ruts, trying hard/being creative without recognition
7. Describe how you experience each of: a) anger; b) shame; c) anxiety.
Anger: I'm pretty slow to anger. If I am angry, it's usually a byproduct of stress or anxiety and rarely happens on its own. And it rarely comes out. It's not that I'm always trying to hold it in, it just rarely comes out. Things that do make me angry though are people are being manipulative and judgemental, obnoxious or are simply hurting loved ones. But yeah, not the deepest emotion I feel.
Shame: I do get guilty a lot, usually from frets about stuff I did in the past or failure.
Anxiety: That's what I feel the most out of all these. I get indecisive, restless and my thoughts race. Anxiety about schools, anxiety about the past, anxiety about phobias(fire,crowds).
8. Describe how you respond to each of: a) stress; b) unexpected change; c) conflict.
a) A cycle of procrastination and feeling guilty about that procrastination. Lots of tension and I isolate myself.
b) Sad/annoyed. New things are refreshing, but yeah, I get attached easily. Or, if there were plans that got changed, I'd get annoyed because I get enthusiastic about plans and plan more myself.
c) I don't respond well. Seeing other's conflicts makes me anxious and I empathize with the people in it. If I'm in it, I try to stay logical, but I back down a lot. I try to avoid it as much as possible.
9. Describe your orientation to: a) authority; b) power. How do you respond to these?
For authority, I am generally behaved, but don't mind breaking a few rules if they don't hurt anyone. I dislike being criticized by them though even though they kinda have to. Plus I dislike it when they deter my creative mojo. I think power is something that can easily go to people's heads and should be distributed more evenly.
10. What is your overall outlook on life and humanity?
Life can be a stressful, scary mess. But overall, I say live and let live, and I try to see the beauty in things. With humanity, some people are definitely jerks, but I think humanity is overall good has come along way in accepting others, albeit more divided(rich vs poor, SJWs vs anti-SJWS).
Describe your relationship with trust
It's a mixed bag. I'm mostly go-with-the-flow and optimistic, but I usually have the worst-case scenario in the back of my mind. And there's more certain situations where I'm untrusting. Mostly social situations, like worrying strangers, will be too touchy. Also, I'm kinda private, but that's also a mixed bag. Around my close friends and on the and internet, I'm open to sharing lots of personal facts or feelings, but around strangers and family(even though there's nothing wrong with them), I'm not usually inclined to share feelings or a lot of small-talky stuff. I have been called trusting though, and am mostly trusting once I get close with a person.
List some of the traits you: a) like most about yourself e; b) dislike most about yourself.
Likes: That I'm easygoing and peaceful, creative, open-minded, see the best in others and like to try new things
Dislikes: That I'm spacey, anxious and disorganized
If a stranger insults you, how do you respond/feel? What if they compliment you?
A compliment, well, that's a good thing! I'd feel blushy but flattered. If they insult me, I'll be shocked and simply feel bad. Tbh I'm not that assertive, so I'll probably just remain quiet.
What's something you are: a) thankful you have; b) wish you could have? Why?
I'm thankful for having a peaceful home life. But hmm, I wish I had a life of more depth. Like in question 1, I want to find my passion. But it's hard. I've had some steady interests(travel, animals, games), but I also find myself finding a topic, soaking it all up and then moving on. I want to have deeper relationships, but it's complicated. I don't like feeling vulnerable, but I want someone to have insightful talks with. And I'd prefer a couple close friends over some squad, but I'm not sure if this is specifically an sx vs so thing or an introvert thing.
Describe your ideal self.
Energetic, inspired, gentle, optimistic, passionate
Which of the 'seven deadly sins' - pride, wrath, sloth, envy, lust, gluttony, avarice - do you relate to most and why? Which do you relate to least and why? Feel free to go into depth about these.
I guess sloth the most and wrath the least. Sloth because I'm passive and prone to procrastination, wrath because I rarely show any anger to people(and don't get angry much period). I think it'd go sloth, gluttony, envy, avarice or lust, pride, wrath.
Gluttony-in a 7 way, wanting to try a little of this, a little of that
Envy: Mostly envy of people having someone I want, sometimes someone accomplishing something I didn't
Lust: I am very romantic, but usually not that lusty
Greed: Fancy things are definitely nice, but I try to focus on how useful a few things will be rather than buying a bunch of stuff. Experience over material goods too. I like to be generous too.
Pride: My self-esteem bounces around a lot. Sometimes I'm feeling cute and ready to take on the world, sometimes I'm full of self-deprecating humor
When you first meet someone, what are your first thoughts? What judgments do you make and what kinds of considerations do you have? Are you more concerned with what they think of you or what you think of them? If you are preparing to meet someone new, what do you hope about them and what do you fear about them?
I wonder how much we'll have in common and what we can do together, but worry they'll be disloyal or overwhelming