Have you ever considered that you are no type? I find that too many people come on here desperate to squish themselves into a box they cannot fit in. And then they try to adopt traits, changing themselves to fit the type descriptions even if it feels unnatural. If the MBTI theory cannot give explanation on who you already are, then you're better off not using it. Humans are very complex creatures. There are lots of personality theories out there, and MBTI is only one of them. It works perfectly for me, but it may not work for you. Because you have the intent of wanting to understand and explore yourself more, I recommend you to search out other personality theories. Labelling and defining yourself as something that is not true to your personality is not any help on your journey of self-knowledge.