I decided to try this questionnaire, as I've been having the most confusing time with the usual online tests. I find I'm usually so ambiguous with my thoughts that I don't feel like I'm being truthful when deciding on just a YES or NO answer.
So far I usually receive the INFP or INTJ types as results, but it's bothering me that I can't seem to find the right one that I identify with the most.
So here goes! I will try and be as concise as possible with my answers (but I'm really terrible at that).
Any help/advice/tips/insights with this will be greatly, greatly appreciated.
0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
I'm female, in my late 20s. My mind is often really turbulent and has depressive tendencies but today I feel quite confident in my convictions :)
1. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it.
Unable to copy the image but: The photo was of a person standing on a path in the middle of a deep forest with sunlight filtering through the tall trees. It immediately makes me feel a bit nostalgic, as forests always do; reminds me of exploring, discovering and hiding in them as a child and all the endless possibilities of one's imagination when in a place like that. I hardly notice the person standing there at all, much more focussed on the sunlight coming through the branches, and trying to imagine the lovely smell.
2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
My initial thoughts would probably be, "oh of course, I should have expected this; it's just typical of me trying to have fun." My outward reaction would probably appear calm and rational, and try to solve the problem somehow, even though inside I'll be thinking of all the worst case scenarios immediately.
3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I would probably want to join the after party (it's my favourite band after all) but I would be concerned about the driver. I'd probably make them double confirm they won't be drinking and then still keep a hawk's eye on them all night, and probably not enjoy myself in the process.
4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
Very hard to answer because it really depends on who the person is, and what the specific belief is. If it's a close friend whose opinions matter to me, inwardly I'd probably be shocked at first then remind myself that not everyone thinks the way I do. I might question them about it to try and understand the logic behind their claim. Then I'd try and explain to them my logic on the matter. Depending on their explanations I would re-evaluate the friendship LOL. Not because I can't handle people that don't agree with me; I can't handle people who can't back their claims in a sensible manner. AGAIN: it really depends on what it is.
5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
I'm sure this is something most people have to go through at some point. Again, I hate saying it so many times but it DEPENDS on so much! I would probably try to take a logical approach to it, gather evidence and other people's experiences/opinions. Reality is just an illusion anyway, so I wouldn't be too shocked. I don't believe anything is set in stone.
6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
Kindness and respect are very important values to me. I determine this by looking at my own experience of wanting to be treated kindly and with respect, so it only makes sense to do the same to others. Rudeness is never necessary. Accountability is another very important one. I cannot handle people who don't take responsibility for their actions. I just find it immediately repulsive when people refuse to admit they made a mistake. Authenticity is also extremely important to me. Truth in all things, in what you say, in your intentions.
7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else? b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
I suppose I have to say the thing that people always notice about me first: that I'm quiet. I do not speak freely about my thoughts or feelings around others, only my closest family, and even then sometimes I second guess everything I say. I'm far too aware of the consequences of speaking before thinking, and as a result I think FAR TOO MUCH and am far too dedicated to perfection and truth and diplomacy in everything I say to even say anything!! It's endlessly frustrating. So yes, I would change that aspect of my personality, but it's so woven into everything else I do it would probably change me as a person completely. I just wish I could express my many many thoughts better to those I love.
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
I tend to mistrust any sort of gut feeling because usually that's my anxiety LOL. So I've learned to not give my gut feelings any credit anymore! Mostly triggered by social situations, for example: someone walks into a room and I'll immediately start feeling like they've got a problem with me (with no evidence of this WHATSOEVER, except whatever nonsense my brain has contrived), and if I don't ignore it, it just gets worse and worse.
9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
I love reading, I love getting deeply engrossed in a story. It feels more like real life than "real life". I'm a firm believer that fiction merely mirrors fact. I also love getting into deep conversations with people on topics like philosophy and spirituality and all kinds of things, because it's something I don't often do, and it really gives me life to talk freely about my thoughts. What drains me the most? Probably small talk and false niceties in social situations. I'm really sensitive to people's energies, and when I sense someone being inauthentic, it's just completely futile to me. I can't get out of there fast enough.
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
Well, I repress basically my entire being. For those I don't know very well, I put forward a very inoffensive, agreeable, vanilla facade and never say anything that attracts attention to myself. Then perhaps those people start getting to know me better and then I'm too afraid to actually show my real self because so far I've only shown them X and don't want to appear inauthentic. Internal thought processes don't change much when I'm with people or when I'm alone.
Well, I tried very hard to be as truthful as possible with this. Actually already learned a few things about myself just from answering those questions :)
I seem to be one of those people who are half down to earth and half up in the clouds. I believe in logic and science and facts but I also persistently search for hidden meanings and symbology behind phenomena and everything.
Anyway! I would really appreciate anyone's input or thoughts on my little soliloquy. :)