0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
Not really. I'm getting over a bit of heartbreak I think, but I bounce back quickly.
I'm fairly content right now, excited for my future in another country.
I was diagnosed bipolar/unipolar depression, but I think that was just Rejection Sensitive Dysphoria.
I'm 22, male, and content.
1. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it.
At first, I thought it was piece of abstract art, which I absolutely hate because I don't think it's really art. Looking a bit closer, I thought it looked liked drums and after a bit more time spent looking, I figured it's probably a chandelier hanging down from a second story ceiling down to light the first floor (you can see the railing running in a square if you look closely.
2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
I probably am disappointed that we won't make it to the concert. I use my knowledge of how cars work to try to diagnose the issue, though I'm awful actually working on cars but if it's a simple fixable issue, I might be able to...especially if it's an older car.
I'm probably very calm and carefree about it. I try to calm down my friends, probably joke around a bit. I'm very nonchalant. Inside I might be slightly nervous
3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I would probably not drink (I don't drink much anyway so it's not much of an issue to me) and offer to drive everyone back. I might be nervous at first but I'd have a good time. I might sit at a table and wait for people to approach me, or I approach a few people and stick with them. I most likely would just stick with my friends. I get nervous in big groups, but in super large banquet halls, I'm the one person who will get all the attention on them and say a quick one liner (sometimes self-deprecating...well, usually self-deprecating) that makes the whole room laugh. I love making everyone laugh. I was always the class clown.
4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
Inwardly, I get pissed off. If it's a group of close friends, I definitely voice my opinion respectfully and may even get very heated and pissed off/passionate as I describe my point of view and why I believe it's right.
If they're people I know less or there are people who I don't know much, I'd probably keep my mouth shut. If it's something very controversial, I just don't say anything at all unless it's too my very best friend, and even then, I worry they'll hate me for my opinion.
5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
Depends on what it is. Seeing it in person might even change my opinion/point of view, depending on what it is. If someone was being racist/sexist/abusive to my friend, I'd tell the person to fuck off and escalate it if I have to. I hate hate hate conflict, but I will defend my friends to the death. If it's less serious, I just let it go. Not worth worrying about.
6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
I don't really know. I try to always be kind to customer service workers, and if it's something they can't help me with, and I get very flustered, I ALWAYS apologize to them and say I'm mad at the company, not them.
I try to be kind to people. I try to be charitable when I can be. I enjoy giving gifts. I like to support the underdogs a lot.
I've always been like that...nothing really determined them. I don't know if they can really be changed at all. They're all basic things that people need to have.
7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else? b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
A. I don't think like everyone else. My train of thought runs wild and I jump from one subject to the next without really having a connection that others can understand.
B. I would either change how awkward I am around people, or how selfish I am. Probably how selfish I am, because being selfish is a shitty thing to do.
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
I generally listen to my gut feelings. They're usually triggered in social situations...sometime's I'll get a vibe that someone is just strange in a school shooter type of way and I will actively avoid them, though this is not common whatsoever. It usually more comes into play in social situations where I have to read social cues and deduce situations from incomplete information.
9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
A. Talking to people and hanging out with them...Petting KITTIES!!!! And dogs :)Going for a walk.
B. Working. Doing repetitive tasks over and over again. Waiting for something I'm looking forward to. Stress. I just get so bored of doing the same repetitive tasks at work over and over and over again, that I just get absolutely drained. I can't stand waiting for something I'm looking forward to because all I can think about is that and it drains my energy. Like currently, most of my time is consumed by thinking about my trip to Russia and different things I need and reading up on the culture.
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
I can sometimes be very harsh/very opinionated and selfish, and I do my best to repress that stuff because I want to be loved.
EDIT: I DID A SECOND QUESTIONNAIRE IN A SEPARATE RESPONSE...HERE IT IS!
1. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
2. Study these two images here and here. Which one do you prefer and why? How would you describe it?
Oh god, definitely the first one. The second one does NOTHING for me. I love the first one because it's simply natural beauty at it's finest. I've always wanted to see the Aurora Borealis and this reminds me of it. There's just nothing as far as the eye can see, so you can just bask in the glory of the ocean and the sky. I'm a photography so I like it even more so.
3. Please describe yourself as a person if you were to introduce yourself to someone else like in a cover letter. What kind of person are you and why?
I'm a person who tries to be good, but fails a lot. I try to love everyone close to me and I do...sometime's I have trouble showing it though. I'm quick, witty, exploratory, decent with languages.
4. What kind of person would you LIKE to be? Why? What kind of person would you NOT want to be? Why?
I would love to be a healthy ENFJ...easy to get along with, very seductive (I love flirting with anyone attractive. It's about the most exciting thing someone can do. The second I'm in a relationship, this changes) and kind. I would not want to be a prick...but sometimes I can be one.
5. Do you think there are any differences to how you described yourself and how people actually perceive you? How do you think others would describe you? If there are any discrepancies between these two that are you are aware of; do you know why exactly that is?
No. I think that's how they perceive me...though witty might not be on there because I make really dumb jokes sometimes...so maybe I'm not actually witty. ;D
6. What in life do you find to be of importance? Why? If you are unsure you can always take the Value Test and post the results here. Do note that it helps if you narrow it down to 20 or ideally 10 values as suggested at stage 2
I actually paid the $7 dollars or so for a Psychology Today values test...dumb, I know...but it seems to be very in-depth. Here are the results for that test
7. How do you react to new situations in your life? Can you describe an event in your life where you were in an unknown situation? How did you deal with it?
I just sort of...deal with them. I can't change them, so why try? Most situations are not unknown to me. I know about them in advance, therefore, not unknown.
8. Please describe yourself when you are in a stressful situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I overthink EVERYTHING. I over analyze the situation for days on end and try to come to a conclusion with incomplete data. It never works well. This is especially true of relationship situations.
9. Please describe yourself when you are in an enjoyable situation. How do you act and why? Real life experiences are welcome.
I act carefree, goofy, talkative, loud. Because why not?
10. Describe your relationship to socialization. How do you perceive one-on-one interaction? How do you perceive group interaction?
I'm much better one on one, and I love that feeling of getting close to one person. Small groups (3 people) feel fine as long as I'm friends with one of them...5 people is fine as long as I'm friends with them, though many times, I talk and feel as though no one listened, so eventually, I get down and just stop talking.
Large banquets (40+ people) is where I shine. I'll get the attention on me for 30 seconds, do a quick witty one liner and have the whole room laughing, and I feel great about it.
11. Describe your relationship to society. What are the elements of it you hold important or unimportant (e.g. social norms, values, customs, traditions)? How do you see people as a whole?
I generally think society is shitty. We're on a slippery slope and things are going down the drain. Too much technology and I HATE it. I hold values important. I see the human population as a whole as unkind and selfish. The second I meet a person though, they are no longer part of the general human population
12. Describe your relationship to authority. How do you perceive authority? What does it mean to you, and how do you deal with it?
I rebel. I hate being controlled...If I like my boss though, I tolerate it and even like it to a point, because it's fun to socialize. I generally tolerate it because I have to, but I want to be my own boss.
13. Describe your relationship to order and chaos. What do order and chaos mean to you? How do they manifest in your daily life?
My life is chaos and I wouldn't have it any other way. Constant stress mixed in with content and moments of excitement make me feel something. Feeling excited is one of the happiest feelings I can have.
14. What is it that you fear in life? Why? How does this fear manifest to you both in how you think and how you act?
I fear people not loving me. I fear no one will ever love me romantically and want to spend the rest of their life with me. I worry about being a failure.
15. What is it that you desire in life? What do you strive to achieve? Why? Where do you think these drives and desires stem from or are inspired by?
I want to be loved. I think I want kids...not totally sure yet, but I have my names picked out for them. I want to achieve long lasting friendships with people. I want to love everyone. My main goal is to support my family and friends financially or in any way they could possibly need.
One other dream I've had is I want to be a world class professor in a field of my choice...the kind that travels the world and gives lectures at famous universities...the kind that students love to have...to inspire them and teach them and be renowned for my teaching ability and knowledge would be a dream.
16. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
Already answered this :)
17. Why do you want to know your type? What type do you think you are? Why this/these type(s)? Is there a type that appeals to you, to your self-perception, that you would like to be? Why? If you know your enneagram, please post this here. If you have done any online function tests such as the Keys2Cognition, it helps if you post these results here as well.
I feel it will help me learn more about myself and meet people who are at least somewhat similar.
I most want to be an ENFJ. Almost universally loved and inspiring to everyone.
18. Finally, is there something else you find to be of importance you want to add about yourself you think might be of relevance when helping to type you?
My role models are:
Louis Pasteur, because of this. He risked going to jail to save this boy because he refused to let a child die without even trying. Because of this, he discovered the vaccine to Rabies.
Samuel Leibowitz (lawyer) because of the Scottsboro Boys case, where he (one of the best lawyers of his era) fought endlessly for years on end defending these innocent boys, who by all modern accounts, were totally innocent. He could have made what would essentially have been millions back then, but did it all for free because he was a believer.
Styles Hutchins, Noah Parden, and the Supreme Court of 1908 because of the lynching of Ed Johnson and the subsequent criminal case in the supreme court of the United States, where they took a bold action for justice that has never and will never be taken again.
Jonas Salk and his discovery of the Polio vaccine...mostly because I remember someone saying something like "He didn't patent it, but rather gave it as a gift to all mankind." That makes me cry. He could have made millions but instead gave it away. Honestly, I'm crying right now just typing this.
Teddy Roosevelt is also an inspiration. A weak man who became strong, and helped found the U.S National Park system and the department of the interior. The National Parks are some of my favorite things on Earth and I adore them so much.
All these cases motivate me and make me want to cry. I want to be like them. I want to do what they did but in the modern day. I want to be the next Louis Pasteur or Jonas Salk or Samuel Leibowitz or Noah Parden. I want to discover the cure to cancer, or defend an innocent man in court from a world that want's nothing more than to lynch him for a crime he didn't do.
ALSO: I'm a commitmentphobe. I want to have sex with everyone I find attractive because I want to experience everything everyone has to offer. I want to know what makes everyone tick...what gives everyone pleasure, what they FEEL like. I know it sounds slutty or whoreish, please don't judge.
When I meet someone I love, I'm instantly committed to them and this whole wanting to experience everyone thing goes out the fucking window. I also would never mind having a third person in bed or being polyamorous to a point. I used to hate it, but I recently had that experience with someone and it sounds so damn invigorating and sensual.
I also have a lot of trouble finishing stuff. I wrote 10 pages of a novel that people told me was good, and then haven't touched it for over 7 months, and have no drive to
Also, I get emotionally connected to people real fast...like within half an hour.
I would give a limb up to be able to sing, dance, or play an instrument good, I think. I think my musical intelligence is good because I always remember song beats, song lyrics, and adore music with all my heart.
The most heartbreaking thing I've ever seen is when Teddy Roosevelt lost his wife and mother on the same day. This was the only thing he wrote in his journal for that day: "The light has gone out of my life."
...I truly cry just thinking about it...it's absolutely heartbreaking.
EDIT: I should also mention that I'm generally very self-aware of how I can be seen and what I'm doing...whether I realize I'm subconsciously manipulating someone into doing something I want (which I try hard to avoid), etc.
Hopefully this might give you guys more info. Sorry for the rant.