I can't seem to figure it out , please tell me what you think
**1) What do you yearn for in life? Why?**
I really just want to have the freedom to live the way I want. If I want to sit on the computer and look at memes until 3am then I'm free to do so, if I want to eat out and eat junk food then I'm free to do so, etc. Large commitment like marriage and having kids and stuff like that makes me extremely uncomfortable and even a bit pissed thinking about it because you can't do anything or hang out with your friends because you're constantly cleaning and fighting and changing diapers etc. I want to be able to get involved in activites and community revolving around my interests and I'll end up skating around anything and everything that prevents me from doing that
**2) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.**
I felt on top of the world when everything seems to be going right, all my favorite online communities are alive, my grades are fine, I'm on my parents' good side and we go out a lot, nobody is 'on my case' and trying to monitor everything I do, my friends invite me out, and I have events to look forward in the coming days. I feel happy when it's like that because I can enjoy myself and not have to worry about anything and have something to look forward to as well. It's a really happy feeling.
**3) What makes you feel inferior?**
When I try to speak up in a group of people and they all just stare at me stoicly and show this contempt that gives off this "f you" vibe. This happens especially with random adults that I try to talk to since I'm young. Or when I say something or do something and someone yells a varient of "who do you think you are" or "who do you think you're talking to" that makes me feel very small too.
**4) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)**
It depends.. if I'm choosing a short term thing like maybe an area to hang out at, I would probably base it off of "hey the vending machine actually works there" or "yeah that other place has a lot of mesquitos" or "they have faster wifi" etc. But if it's a long term thing like a college, I'd choose based on what they have available, what kind of people I would make friends with there, how close it is to the city, and am I going to be able to do the things I love there etc.
**5) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?**
If it's a school project 99% of the time I'm not even going to want to do it lol. So I'd probably procrastinate a lot and then when I finally start doing it I'll put a lot of emphasis on what's required of me and the specific instructions and what I need to do to not fail and get that done as fast as possible and then if I'm actually remotely interested in it I'll go back and add more quality. If it's a group project, I just sit my booty on my phone until someone tells me what I need to do to contribute and help out and I'll do that and then be done lol.
**6) Describe us a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?**
I went to a large dinner with like 30+ people and I had some margaritas and took a lot of pictures, ordered a ton of desserts, told stories and laughed a lot and those 5-6 hours only felt like a few minutes to me because one funny/cool thing after another kept happening and it was like a non-stop stream of awesomeness and I never wanted to leave. I still remember it very well since it was an extremely significant event in my life. It changed my perspective a lot, it gave me a lot of faith in humanity and showed me that holy crap I didn't know people could be this nice and fun.
**7) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorize, to memorize, etc)**
It really depends what I'm learning. If im learning how to cook a meal I remember it better if I watch someone do it in front of me or do it myself. But if I'm learning something like the world maps, I tend to link the country names to something important to me (my friend was from X so now I'll never forget where it is on the map). If im learning how to use a new software then I'll start trying to find the basic features (how do I save? how do I set my profile picture? can I see my friends list?) and then familiarize myself like that. It reaaaaally depends though and I don't learn everything exclusively with one style
**9) How organized do you to think of yourself as?**
I only organize the things that matter to me I've noticed. Like, my locker can look like a landfill and my clothing drawer has no system to it whatsoever, but I also have folders and discord servers and photo albums that I've spend hours designing and making it organized so I can find everything in 1 second and it looks satisfying. But I can only find the energy to do that if its especially personally relevant. Everything else is a tornado
**10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?**
I think I tend to figure out how it works first? like for MBTI I went straight to ok what do these letters stand for, what do they indicate, how do you decode the letters into a cognitive function stack, what do the cognitive functions stands for, how does this add up with me, etc. I really have no idea (I spent like 45 minutes on this question lol 😂)
**11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?**
I think I definitely feel more at peace with the latter, I don't think I really pay attention to if everyone in the group is feeling fine and even if I did notice I wouldn't have the slightest idea what to do :/. On the other hand I feel very at ease when I'm allowed to express my excitement about an interest or a value and if I'm being critised or pushed down for it I consider that to be 0% harmony
**12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?**
I'm absolutely a speak-before-think person. To this day I still get dirty looks after blurting something out and regret it. It's a big issue since my childhood and I barely think things through and I've gotten screwed over many times. As for discussions I find groups to be a ton more fun, I feel like I'm not wasting my time when I speak (((assuming they're listening, and assuming the group didn't just break up and start a bunch of one-on-one micro convos))). And when my mind goes blank, I can rely on other people to prevent the awkward silence, and generally I feel more excited to speak up. Whereas one-on-one can be beneficial depending on the topic or if it's really personal or something, I just think it would be kind of stale if I had the choice between that or the group.
**13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?**
This was a tough one for me and I actually had to ask a good friend who knew me very well about this lol. They said I'm definitely more of a leap first person and I don't do much thinking but this could very well just be my age. I'm p young. Also I think words can have a lot of meaning, I know that when I screw up I write apology essays and I know if someone writes one for me, I'll definitely acknowledge it and be touched by it. Actions are important too, I try to make sure I don't contradict my words but when I do and then the other person loses trust in me I dont blame them. They both have weight but just for different purposes.
**14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favourite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?**
This actually happened to me the other week lol!!! I was about to binge watch the office with a bowl of cheese balls when my friend called and wanted to go shopping. I was extremely hyped and jumped right out my chair to go meet them. There's no way I'm turning down an invitation to go out. Netflix is always there for me later
**15) How do you act when you're stressed out?**
When something bad is *actively* happening, for example my parents going through my web history or going through my room, during that kind of stress, my stomach physically feels sick and I really just start shutting down yet feel jerked awake at the same time. I can't do anything so I just stand there, actually physically shaking, feeling helpless because there's nothing I can do, and I start thinking bad things like "Did I forget to clean my history?? They are going to find my X account, and then they're gonna dig around in my email and force the password out of me and go on a tangent and then find everything I've worked for and take it away from me and I'm not going to have a phone or Internet connection ever again and I have to buy a computer in secret somehow and run away and I'll be living life against my own family just to get my crap back" and just go down that rabbit hole and start thinking what can I do to get out and if I can't get out I'll feel hopelessly trapped. All this turmoil and on the outside I'm simply unmoving, sweating, and have a straight face
**16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?**
I really really hate it when people are aloof and judgemental and indifferent especially when I'm being really excited about something or just simply trying to talk to them. I've met people who give off the impression of a snobby cult leader, and every word just seems to be going up their ass and it's a waste of time to talk to them. It's the kind of vibe that would make you feel like saying "F*** YOU TOO" even if they didn't say anything. Their body language and responses say it well enough. So stoic and stand offish.
**17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?**
I looooooooove talking about funny stories with people. Like I'll tell them about the time I sprayed some random crap and ruined the wall as a child and they'd tell me about another story about their experience or what they did as a child too. Just laughing at situations that weren't funny at the time haha. I also like talking about things that I'm interested in, like cats and what my cat does and what theirs does etc. If Im lucky I'll find someone who heard about MBTI but they're rare and they usually don't even remember their letters
**18) What kind of things do you pay the least attention to in your life?**
I don't pay attention to how I'm pervievd by others. This applies in a lot of ways. I don't care about my appearance, if I want to wear a T shirt and jeans they are comfortable for me and I don't care if I'm looking formal or impressing anyone. Of course I take care of my hygiene and don't want to smell bad but honestly I'm not a big fasionita either. I also shout blunt stuff sometimes like if someone hands me their business card I was like "OH this is the company that screwed me over!!" and then they're kind of offended. Also little things like dropping the entire spoon into the soup bowl and not noticing that the next person has to dig it out etc. I'm kind of a jack ass like that but I'm working on it
**19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? What would your friends never say about your personality?**
A couple of my friends have said that I was very quiet at first, but then I started being talkative later. I think I was quiet mostly because my parents were closely watching and I was scared to get in trouble or say something that would get me screwed, or because I was face-in-phone and really absorbed in what I'm doing. Another group of friends see me as very vulgar because when there's absolutely no boundaries I start making really dirty jokes lol. One of my friends commented that I see the beauty in everything. Another friend sees me as polite and give more than I take. And my parents see me as outgoing, aware of my surroundings to an extent, and sometimes inappropriate and imposing and interrupt a lot. Somebody called me a lazy sloth too lol. It seems like the different people have different perceptions. But they all never seem to describe me as thoughtful or reserved or authoritian or anything like that.
**20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?**
I would probably go downtown and eat out and sit on a coffee shop's wifi to chat on reddit or something and browse memes, or spend time with my friends and buy a bunch of junk food that I can never finish and use my phone a lot. It depends lol