So might as well jump right into this. I’ve been into typology for quite a few years now, and for the majority of it considered myself an INFP. For a brief while when I first started, I considered myself an ISFP, but that was short lived until INFP seemed to fit the most. Despite identifying as INFP for so long, lately I’ve been seriously questioning whether or not I’m an INTP.
Reasons why I think I could be an INFP:
Ever since I was younger, I’ve always loved bunnies, and always tried to personalize everything I had with bunnies. I started writing a book at the age of 5, and slowly have been developing it as I’ve gotten older into a full fledged story. It means a lot to me, and I base a lot of things around it, logical or not.
Reasons why I think I could be an INTP:
I’m stone cold for the most part, I struggle with sharing my emotions, and many people around me question my Love and care for them. It’s not that I don’t care for people, but I struggle with showing that through traditional works or words of affection. The only person I pull that off for to some degree is my boyfriend, but I link part of that to the fact that we met online, therefor talked a lot online, building my comfort slowly over time to express things in a more traditional way. It also helps that he’s an INFJ, who does very well with expressing his Love and care for people, so part of it was just reflecting off him, and then altering it to come a bit more natural. Though I struggle to do that for anyone else, because I don’t spend as much straight, intimate time with them.
Other notes that could to some degree go both ways, I don’t know.
Science has never been my thing, I enjoy learning a bit different animals, and how many things work, but the intricacies of scientific algorithms and details just doesn’t catch my attention for very long. I’ve been drawing and writing every since I was younger, and that’s what most of my hobbies are. Despite seeing so many artists express their feelings so well through their art, I can’t manage to do so. I envy it to some degree, their art seems so much more raw and genuine, while I can spend hours trying to build a story with emotion, I can’t express it myself. I understand emotion to some degree, almost like a robot. I’ve seen how things effect people, I get the meaning and expression behind each core emotion, but I can’t express it or really understand it in myself. I can’t utilize my knowledge, I can only identify what I see in other people. The thing is, I can express emotion through poetry, it’s my only outlet. So when I do get upset, I see it as pointless to waste time getting all worked up over something that won’t matter in the future, so I’d rather put my “feelings” into something that hurt no one, or no thing. Plus, it might be fun to read someday if I’m bored and want to relive some stupid memories.
I read a few places that infps will pick a career, or something like it, despite whether it fits into society or not. While an INTP would. I started out wanting to go into art, or writing, or psychology, but realized quickly that wasn’t going to get me anywhere. I started to try to find something that could get me money, be sustainable, but also wouldn’t be dreadful to do long term, and possibly have room for advancing. I decided I’m probably going to go into drafting, then later architecture, it’s a somewhat art related job, but is also very math based, and fairly flexible from what I’ve read.
So most of this has been random dumps of information, and I’m sure some not even related to personalities, but maybe it’ll help? I’m not sure, just thought I’d put it out there. Your free to ask questions, any help would be appreciated!