0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
Hm nope, I think I might be a bit of an unhealthy version of my type since I'm still developing. I'm really not that good at typing myself, like I just keep never sticking to one type. I'm 18, a female. I'm quite well right now. Pardon my spelling lol, english isn't my first language. I've been typed as INFJ, ISFP, or even ESXP, but idk about the feeling function because I often don't act based on my feelings but more according to what the situation asked for me to behave like, I often neglect how I really feel as not as important as the result.
1. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it.
flickr . com/photos/[email protected]/48660013206/in/explore-2019-09-01/
It's a really beautiful picture of some sort of butterfly that looks really cute. I think I really focused on its action, of putting its "nose" in the flower, I really focused on its eyes and its details, more than its colors. I've never seen an insect like it, the color of the flower jumped out to me much more than its structure though. My attention was mostly set on the bug.
2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
Somehow I'd have hope that everything'll be alright in the end, I'll ask the other people to check what's wrong with the car, and if they don't know then I'll probably call someone or a company that knows how to fix it. And hope we'll get there in time.
3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I'd go, probably reluctantly at first, because I'd be scared if things got messy at the end, or if he doesn't keep his word to not drink. I'd go anyway because I wouldn't want to ruin their fun, but I'd watch that they don't get in trouble.
4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
Inwardly I'd wish I could fix their statement because I'm sure that they haven't read enough about it and are probably talking without having sought for facts to back up their statement, because if it's something I believe in that is an intellectual subject, then I most likely know about it well enough to not rely on false assumptions.
But if it's a matter of personal beliefs and decisions like not wanting to get married or not believing in marriage for example then I'd simply brush it off, because I don't really take them to account. I believe that life can make you change your mind in some ways, you might say you don't want to do something and then one day it's all you want to do.
Outwardly, I wouldn't say anything. Unless they're so close enough to me that I know they'll take my advice to keep an open mind/ to not judge without knowing enough. I'd maybe tell them about the real facts of the intellectual subject, but just advise them not to generalize stuff for the latter.
5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
That would probably change my life, it really depends on what. I once used to believe I'd fall in love only once and with the right person only when I was a kid, but suddenly life brought me somebody I wouldn't have dreamed of falling in love with, they cheated on me and I left them, even though I was really attached to them. It shocked me to be heartbroken by a childhood dream, so I closed myself off from it to have enough time to heal from that experience and open up again. It was all inwardly though, I never showed anything of it outwardly.
But if it's a matter of religion, or anything else, then yeah I'd probably really change my mind and move with the new wisdom I got from it, probably research about it and learn about it. I wouldn't change my religion, but I'd be more open to outside beliefs and consider that they all relate to one another in some way.
6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
What I really value is to never judge before knowing, and to never trust without knowing. I really value patience and waiting things out before jumping right into them, because I made a lot of mistakes out of mere assumptions before, I'm still young, so I don't know if it's because of lack of experience or a dominant function, it's in my nature and temperament to react to things too quickly, either panic or get addicted to it, I often try to see everything and know about everything even if it's considered a red line to not cross. I of course have limits and value myself enough not to do harmful things that I know will really destroy me in the end, but I simply want to learn about every single thing whether good or bad and deduce something valuable from it.
7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else? b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
a) I sometimes feel like I am simply witnessing life, like I'm not really living it inside my body fully. It's kinda like being in a dream, I'm way too passive and sometimes careless about a lot of stuffs I should care about, and leave things till the deadline.
- I really put a lot of value in art, I really love it because it's the only subject that makes me feel like I can belong somewhere, I'm really bad at maths and physics, so art and literature and anything that helps me dream and feel passion inside can make me feel really alive and happy. Especially music, I often think of song lyrics or tunes that just fly away because I often don't really feel like writing them.
- I often don't put myself in the risk of facing dramas or conflicts because I really hate them, so I can put myself aside for something, just to not cause problems. If I really don't want to do something somebody asks me to do, I'd do it anyway just because I feel guilty to be selfish.
- If somebody tries to trouble someone I really love I can get really protective and simply face the other party, but I don't do that often unless if it's for my family or really close friends.
- I often tend to really withdraw from both my family and friends for some time and dislike it when somebody tries to take too much from me in any way, even unintentionally. Like if somebody needs help then I'll help them as much as I can but I can feel really drained by that. I prefer to experience life in my own perspective and in my own way without feeling dependent on anyone.
b)Even though I am aware that some things are wrong and others are things I'm supposed to be doing, I simply go with whatever I feel like doing. And I can feel really guilty right after, because I neglected responsibilities and felt way too burdened, almost like I'm in a cage by them. So I escape from them just because it's really not what I want to do.
- I think that one of my biggest problems is how I put myself out of the equation on things, like I'm so scared of making mistakes that will "doom" me and just follow the advise of those I see as "knowledgeable". But I just recently learned that there is no right or wrong way of living life really, as long somebody's trying their best in whatever way they can.
- I often try to keep it real to myself, I don't know if this has anything to do with mbti, like if somebody brags about a way of living or a how somebody "should" behave I often feel like it's not "realistic", what I mean is that nobody's perfect and some people just can't change, so we should accept that this is how things are. Probably because I saw it this way. I often feel like some things never change no matter how hard you try to escape from it, but at the same time you can grow if you experience something that changes your perspective. Which is why I always try to live everything and experience everything (even by just listening to other people talking about it or just imagining it) and learn something from it. I don't really believe that people are 100% flawless or can be, even tho I really fear making mistakes I could regret about.
- Yet I often try to avoid taking things way too seriously, I often think that everything will be okay in the end, or put play before work because I really don't want to see the world in a grey light. Even tho I really wish I worked harder, I somehow always end up thinking about other things and get really distracted.
- I'm really, really, really forgetful, except about things that have affected me. I tend to only get nostalgic feelings, but not images if that makes sense. I only remember things once I feel or sense something that reminds me of it. Sometimes I get really impressed at how people can remember stuff I wouldn't even think of remembering, like what I said or did, at one exact moment. Like I only remember the things that really brought emotions out of me because it's not that often.
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
I often really listen to them, because I often feel like observing things from a third perspective, so when I sense that something's odd or that there's something going on beneath the surface that's not really noticeable, I tend to really keep it in mind.
9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
a) I really really love alone time away from even the closest people to me because that's when I feel I can finally remember who I am, because when I'm around people I because really spontaneous and high energy and forget to be myself, I become really immersed in what's going on and react according to it, whether I withdraw or I "open up" really depends on outside factors and who/what I'm dealing with.
I really love/hate art because it both makes me feel passionate and it takes me away from reality.
I don't really know how to say it but my interests really depend on what I'm up to do, I often really love taking any opportunity to go out and discover new places and people, just to create feelings in those moments I can one day remember, and sometimes all I wanna do is spend time at home in an environment that makes me feel really safe to be myself. (By being myself I don't necessarily mean that I'm open about talking about my real feelings or stuff, but it means I can at least let loose and enjoy a good time.)
I really really love trying new things so much, getting new interests or mastering new subjects, I love working out and eating healthy, I love mastering hands on skills and learning about all the details of a subject I love correctly from a trustworthy source.
b) Trying to find a purpose for my life, because it really confuses me so much, which is also why I'm so confused about my mbti type because I really don't have any set in stone views about life or the world or anything, I just really love to think that everything is happening exactly as it is supposed to because everything matters, and that things will be alright in the end.
I often feel really stressed out when I have to overthink about things I have no factual knowledge of, like for example solving math problems used to stress me out so much because I was so scared of not knowing the result. I had math phobia.
So I really disliked talking with people that really questioned too much about things I couldn't answer, or things I didn't really think mattered or were even realistic. I'm kind of a skeptic until I find that the subject really works/is true with my senses.
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
I don't talk ever about how I really feel or show how I really think, only rarely when I'm at rock bottom with someone I know wouldn't judge me harshly and will genuinely care, because I've often felt like I was simply not heard or that it didn't change anything. Or that if I did it wouldn't really go until I'd experience something that'd make me forget and see the world in a new light again.
Thank you for reading <3