Hi all. I am having a difficult time typing myself, and I do not find online tests to be accurate, as my results always vary. Here is how I describe myself and have been described by other people:
I am very sensitive and emotional. I easily pick up on and even take on the moods and emotions of other people. Because of this, I have a love and compassion for all living things (humans, plants, animals).
I am very quiet and reserved in group settings, but one on one, I a very emotionally expressive and engaging communicator.
I do not like small talk, but I LOVE deep conversations with people I really connect with
I have about 3 very close friends. We are very close, but do not see each other often due to lifestyles and schedules. I also do not feel the need to actively socialize often to maintain connections. We maintain communication online and see each other in person every few weeks.
I am soft spoken, but again, can get passionate and highly engaging and bubbly when one on one and the topic interests me (eye contact, lots of questions etc.)
I don’t really go out of my way to talk to people, but I am friendly and open if spoken to first and I am comfortable with the person.
I do not like crowds or “open” spaces and get anxious around lots of people.
I have been told that I have a “calming presence” and that I am very “warm”, “calm”, “approachable”, “kind”, and “open” quite often. I have a smiley/friendly face.
In a way, I feel like it's a facade though. I have a LOT going on inside my head all the time, and I am constantly analyzing, processing and interpreting things through my own lens. I see the world in terms of possibilities, and am a "big picture person". I am VERY intuitive and feel emotions very strongly. I think I exemplify "living in your head".
I need to be alone. A lot. I do enjoy spending time with others to a degree, but I do not like superficial relationships and I need to be alone for several hours a day to contemplate reflect and recharge
On some level, I feel “different”. I connect to people well and am understanding, but I feel there is a barrier that prevents people from fully understanding me.
A lot of this points to introversion, but I am confused since I am not “reserved” (unless in a large group) and quite expressive with my emotions when I want to be. I am fairly quiet though, and don't really like social activities. Someone called me “social” today because “my face lights up” when she talks to me, and I show interest and engagement in conversation (connect well with people). But I am still a very solitary person at the core of me and only feel deep, soul bonds with a select few.
Any ideas on a type? TIA