0. Is there anything that may affect the way you answer the questions? For example, a stressful time, mental illness, medications, special life circumstances? Other useful information includes sex, age, and current state of mind.
I have ICS (Irritable Colon Syndrome) which in my case means stress causes diarrhea. I really hate it.
It might be partly because of physical reasons (too much stomach acid is my guess) though they found nothing (but they didn't check acid). They found a mild case of NALD (Non-alcoholic fatty liver disease) but that's really nothing.
Or it might be purely psychological (which I doubt because antacids do help - OTOH that might be a placebo effect). I have developed something that I self-diagnose as agoraphobia: when I know I need to go to some unknown place or to some bureau I'm already stressed because I know I'll get diarrhea from the stress. When I do get a sudden diarrhea it really feels like a form of panic attack but I might be wrong.
This is very very very unpleasant. The fear of crapping my pants is much worse than your usual fear of death panic.
I'm writing this from work "in secret". That might affect my answers as well.
1. Click on this link: Flickr: Explore! Look at the random photo for about 30 seconds. Copy and paste it here, and write about your impression of it.
I'm not sure I can copy the image here as I have too few post counts. Here is the cropped link:
It's a waterfall in black and white. Originally I looked it for half a second and thought this looks like neurons. Then I checked the other photos but there was way too many of them. I went back and forced myself to look at the waterfalls for 30 seconds while counting in my head. I found it also reminds me of long hair or spiderwebs. It somehow has a nice silvery glow to it. And I also like the rocks. (The shine also appeared to me during the initial half second look, it's just hard to describe with words thus I left it to the end.)
2. You are with a group of people in a car, heading to a different town to see your favourite band/artist/musician. Suddenly, the car breaks down for an unknown reason in the middle of nowhere. What are your initial thoughts? What are your outward reactions?
"OH MY GOD! Not that!" - Then I go panic and start to feel gripes. I'm busy trying to repress panic (that, or search for a bush) while the others find a solution.
If I'm in a better mood I suggest calling a car fixer (Yellow Angel it's called over here) and then wait unless it's something we're able to solve ourselves like changing a wheel. In this case I'll suggest ways how to do it and participate helping in the process but I'm not the one doing it -unless I'm the only one that can do it.
3. You somehow make it to the concert. The driver wants to go to the afterparty that was announced (and assure you they won't drink so they can drive back later). How do you feel about this party? What do you do?
I'd probably dislike the idea at first. I like to know plans like that in advance so I can prepare mentally. It depends much on the concrete situation. If I really like these people and feel like partying anyway than it's ok. Otherwise I might feel trapped. I might even come up with an alternative way to get home without them.
4. On the drive back, your friends are talking. A friend makes a claim that clashes with your current beliefs. What is your inward reaction? What do you outwardly say?
My inward reaction is: "No. That's BS." I say nothing outwardly. If they say it directly to me I'm nodding politely and search for something partly related to the claim with which I can agree and start talking about that. If they are really close to me then I express my view of the subject - that is, when I know I won't cause indignation.
5. What would you do if you actually saw/experienced something that clashes with your previous beliefs, experiences, and habits?
Like what? I have difficulties understanding this question. I think I'd just walk past ignoring it. If it's something disturbing like a tussle then I'll have my heart beating fast and feel really uncomfortable ... but end up still doing nothing. I'll have the event replayed in my head several times afterwards coming up with various ideas about what I should have done.
6. What are some of your most important values? How did you come about determining them? How can they change?
Creativity, intelligence, deepness, artistic talent.
That's really a shame but I think I've always been told by my parents and siblings how creative and deep thinking and talented I am.
They are fading due to sleep deprivation and me getting more and more disillusioned and uninterested in the world. (E.g. all those years of pondering about the world only awarded me with a thousand reasons to why finding the meaning of life is impossible.)
7. a) What about your personality most distinguishes you from everyone else? b) If you could change one thing about you personality, what would it be? Why?
a) I honestly don't know if I'm more clever or more dumb than others but I definitely think differently than other people. I hide my views because I don't want to be hated for them. (E.g. generalization is not a morally bad thing. It's the basement of human thinking, come on. Or the contradictions in that tolerance crap (you should tolerate everyone, except those who don't think the same way... and those who do this and that... and those, and those).)
b) I'd like to be more brave and not so neurotic. Why? Because I'd be SO awesome then!
8. How do you treat hunches or gut feelings? In what situations are they most often triggered?
Those are very important to me. I think I rely on them most when relating to people. I can't tell why I like someone or why I dislike them (speaking of "normal" people here).
9. a) What activities energize you most? b) What activities drain you most? Why?
I don't know. Finding solution to a problem? Physical activities do have a positive after effect. But I do them rarely.
It rather works the other way around. There are days when I'm somehow magically energized. Then I'm proactive, funny, open. I don't know what triggers it, but I sure wish it would trigger more often.
10. What do you repress about your outward behavior or internal thought process when around others? Why?
Everything? (I admit, I'm getting tired by this quiz.) I'm consciously and sub-consciously acting as a chameleon. I'm trying to be what I auto-intuit other people would like me to be. Do I even have an own personality?
Imagine how I hate it when I somehow meet with two different people who both know me but don't know each other.