i feel like i'm the healthiest point i've been in my life thus far, so i thought i'd give this another go before i head off to school. i'm going to try a questionnaire i haven't done before.
1. When working on a project where do you place your emphasis? the process of putting it together? or the final product? (Do you experiment with your perspectives to create ideas?
Well, first I always prefer to work by myself, because I have a specific work ethic and often get bogged down by other people trying to 'help', or understand how I work. It's always about the final product. I am not one for processes and trying to figure out how and why things work. I want to finish the project to the best of my ability and then move on.
2. Are you a realist? Are you more of a no nonsense type of person? (I find these people like to call bullshit on everything)
Well, I am definitely a 'my way or the highway' type of person. I would say I'm some sort of pessimistic idealist, which makes no sense - I tend to have a negative outlook on things, so I kind of escape into my own head and my own world of fantasy. I am a bit of a no nonsense type of person. I like order, and structure, and too much chaos unsettles me. I work well within a bureaucracy, and the 'system' so to speak, though I don't particularly like it.
3. Would you say you make decisions quickly? or do you take a while coming to a conclusion, because you hope you're not missing some vital information that will change your mind?
I like to have things decided, but I do enjoy having room for changing my mind. I feel comfortable with decisions, but the extra security of things changing if need be.
4. Do you ever experience nostalgia? For instance being able to completely remember a mood of a past experience/time?
Oh, constantly. I am a very nostalgic person. I can kind of live in the past, dwell on the negatives of it or wish for the good times, a bit too much if I'm not careful.
5. Are you of the rebellious sort? The sort who rebels for no reason other than to rebel against authority?
Internally, yes. I have always been good at following orders and doing what I've been told, but not because it gives me pleasure. It makes life easier, I suppose, and more efficient, but the majority of times I disagree with authority and just keep my mouth shut. My teacher used to joke about how one day I'd 'turn against the system and run off to some exotic locale and live out my days scooping ice cream', which seems fairly plausible.
6. When watching a film and critiquing it? Do you critique it based on details in the film, for instance on how you thought a certain portion of it was un-realistic (or something along those lines) or based on the idea or point they were trying to get across/how well they got it across? (It can be a combination of both sometimes too)
Well, I don't really every critique films. I don't see movies I don't think I'll like. Usually, I just complain about plot holes, or lack of character development. I never complain about realism because you shouldn't expect realism in anything fictional.
7. When debating with others, do you ever get the feeling or state for that matter, that you can see where your opponent is coming from? For instance I have gotten into arguments over things I honestly don't believe (or could care less if it were true), but it all started when someone would tell me about a certain topic and how this certain stance is stupid.
Usually, but I don't particularly care. This is only on anything political or social or of that nature, of course. If it is any personal conflict, I don't care to discern where other people are coming from - I'm too concerned about being right and winning the argument.
8. Do you notice symbols in the world, do you ever try and wrap the symbol back to an idea that you believe?
I'm not sure if I catch that meaning. I can easily discern symbols in books and movies and such, but never in real life - I highly doubt there are symbols in reality that we can notice.
9. Are you hurt by criticisms? Do you get personally offended when people try and criticize you? or are you thick skinned?
I'm easily hurt, yes. Very sensitive, but I rarely show it. Externally, I accept everything easily in move on, but internally, I am easily offended. I am already critical enough on myself as it is, I don't need criticism from others.
10. Say for example your learning about cameras in school, would you be more inclined to go home right away and read a whole shit load on cameras so you feel confident in your knowledge of cameras? or would you feel perfectly comfortable when the teacher calls on people to come try it out, to just hop up there and start using it?
Well, having taken photography in school, I was in this situation, and I did the latter. I had no need to go home and read extensively about cameras, my teacher's instruction was enough. And besides, it's just a camera - not that hard to work, anyway.
11. When you are out do you worry about how people will interpret any action you take? (sort of in a seinfeld sort of way, where they over analyze actions people make, trying to find their true motivation) Do you feel a sort of pressure from this?
I'm not quite sure what this question is asking, but I do value what other people think of me very highly. I try to act as agreeable as possible, even to those I don't like, because it's important to put on the best face possible. Though I can sometimes slip, only around my closest friends and family. I don't really read into the actions of others unless they're acting out of the ordinary.
12. In a classroom setting do you ever find yourself helping other people out with projects or homework when you see their struggling? Do you do this to make yourself feel more comfortable?
I can't stand inefficiency and stupidity, so usually I help. I never really want to, but I can't seem to help it - I always want to put on a good front and viewed in a positive light, and helping others, though I am not naturally generous, is a way to do that. My close friends are an exception, of course. I don't mind helping them. It's also always a chance to show off my intelligence, which I enjoy.
13. Do you find yourself ranting to your friends about how a certain something could have been done way easier? Or how someone went about doing something (anything like a project,work,etc.) was really stupid and you could have done it way better and in a more simple fashion?
Yes, but usually in a condescending, rather sarcastic, way. Like, "Well, darling, this wouldn't have happened if I was in charge, would it? But that's alright, you didn't know. Just let me handle it next time, okay?"
14. How does your average day go in general?
Depending on whether or not I have school or not, wake up late, some form of exercise, go out for coffee and to read in the local coffee shop, come home, nap, eat dinner, do something productive (write, check messages, etc), watch a movie or something, read, go to bed.
15. What things do you value the most?
Ambition. Compassion (something I, admittedly, sometime lack). Honor. Curiosity.
16. What things regularly bug you?
Seeing people, or going places I don't want. Being told I can't do something. My parents waking me up when I'm asleep. When nothing good is on TV. Having a whole list of things to do and not wanting to do any of it. When people ask dumb questions in class.
17. What do you value most in other people and what qualities do you find most repulsive in others?
I value people who are tolerant, want to learn new things, and go out of their way to make sure I'm okay and comfortable. I don't care for people who don't seek to expand their knowledge of the world, and are perfectly content to live as they are. I don't like people who are rude, actively seek conflict, or have no sense of propriety and respect.
18. How do you evaluate people in general?
I am definitely someone who tends to judge a book by its cover, so I only need to glance at someone for a few long seconds (what are they wearing? who are they with? what are they saying? tone of voice?), before I determine whether or not I want to pursue any kind of friendship. I can be very quick to judge, in short.
19. How do you arrive at your decisions?
I tend to gather as much knowledge and facts as possible. For example, if I was shopping for a new pillow, I would look at every site available, read reviews, google what types of pillows are best for what I need, and perhaps try to find one in a store somewhere to look at firsthand, before I purchased it. With smaller things, I can be incredibly indecisive, and usually end up buying nothing.
20. What factors are you most likely to pay attention to when deciding on things?
How will I enjoy it? Will it make me happy? Will it give me anxiety? How beneficial will it be for me>
21. Any peculiarities that you have noticed about your personality?
It seems like my personality is quite contradictory. I can be extremely introspective and feel perfectly okay not seeing anyone for days at a time, but I often feel left out when people get together without me. I want attention, but I hate putting myself out there. I am often towards between following my head, and doing something rational and productive, and following my heart, and doing what I love. I'm kind of always lost in my head, wishing to be somewhere else, or imagining myself living in the past. I almost feel like I would be much better suited in some 18th century royal court than my current time and place.
22. Anything that makes you stand out from other people that you know?
My friends say I should have been born in a different time period, like I'm from the 1800s, since I am rather fond of classic literature and music, and tend to be eloquent in speaking, so take what you will from that. A lot of my teachers have said I'm very deep for my age, and seem to have everything figured out, though I certainly do not.
23. What do you yourself think are your strengths and weaknesses?
Strengths: smart, hard-working, ambitious, charming, polite, good tastes
Weaknesses: critical, selfish, snobby, elitist, pessimistic, perfectionistic, too introspective, judgemental