I believe myself to be an Enneagram 9 sx variant and an MBTI ISTP. The descriptions just fit. But when I communicate with others of that type (ISTP), we are just different. Then I start questoning my type, I reanalyze the type descriptions, and I come to the same conclusions all over again.
So, why is this? I understand that everyone is an individual, but it's just too much of a rub to ignore.
Allow me to give a bit of background. I was raised by two very different parents. One was very nearly a saint and the other was an abusive drug addict. After observing my father's choices and behavior and seeing the impact and pain it caused my mother, I decided that was NOT for me. Alcoholism is on both sides of my family and so I have never drank, knowing my genetic makeup makes me predisposed to addiction. Same with other drugs and substances. It seems a strong trait of the ISTP to at least drink, if not drug as well. Even if I could hypothetically get drunk with no risk for addiction I wouldn't. The thought of losing control of myself makes my flesh crawl. I don't see any benefit from it.
ISTPs seem to be unemotional, for lack of a better word. I'm fairly comfortable with most emotions, though I'm awkward and prone to expressing them inappropriately or not at all. I genuinely care about how people around me feel. I am good at ferreting out others emotions (Translation: I pester 'til they spill) and then I am sympathetic, offer solutions if I can (which I'm learning can be a messy business), buy them a coffee or something and after we've talked about it I help them forget about it either by being a dumbass or by engaging in an activity they like. This is natural for me, but I know how bad it feels to hurt, and maybe that's where this trait comes from. Who can say?
When I'm rude I know it since I tend to be polite by default. When I am impatient or short with my children I know it and though I often choose to allow myself to express it I always feel guilty later.
I hate being alone, I love being at home with my family. I find socializing tiring. All of my friends have interesting quirks, some would call them downright odd. I tend to give people a chance when others won't, but it's not charity, I genuinely like and appreciate these people. If I see good character and if I enjoy their company I'll continue to seek them out long after my curiosity is satisfied. But if they're flakey, forget it. They're immediately cut from my life. I am loyal and on it, and damn it, I expect the same!
I have entire worlds in my head, and I write about them (dungeons and spells and fighting, mythic stuff). My writing is best when it's subjective and in the mind of the character. I write with great emotional depth. That is my gift in writing. Maybe someday I'll be published, maybe not, but it doesn't matter. I write for myself and the pleasure of creating.
I love music, it's a very huge part of my life. Life would be grey without it!
These are the ISTP descriptions I like:
ISTP - On A Team
The above are much better than Joe Butt... seriously, what does that man smoke?!?
I feel like the weirdest ISTP on earth.