I need some help. Ive been doing research and even did the socionics test. All the tests end up telling me i am INTJ. But i doubt that.
Although i love debating, planning my future, thinking about ?abstract? things like parallel universes or some paradoxes, i dont come up with that stuff myself. INTJS are said to be always buzzing with new ideas and be masterminds but im not that creative. i won’t come up with a debate topic or something like parallel universes. i would need to hear it in a conversation or read it or watch a movie which triggers my interest.
There are many things that are too complicated for me. A text with many complicated words is exhausting. I think INTJ would be intelligent enough for that.
I am also not interested in science or maths, there are too many details that I can’t deal with. I dont know how knowing how to calculate or knowing how destillation works will help me in my life. its not interesting. physics has too much math in it and i dont want to know how enzymes work in my body. * id rather know about psychology and what is outside the universe.
The only subject im good in is history. Not because its interesting but because its easy to learn. i dont need to learn details, i just need to remember a more or less interesting story about a queen or a war.
Introverted or Extroverted?
I prefer being at home alone over being with people. I dont like parties or social events.*
Ne or Ni?
Since i use Te i guess i use Ni but i dont get it.
I read that Ne likes to discuss possibilities, while Ni likes discussing potential conclusions. Also INTJ are said to have many „AHA!“ moments which i dont recall having had. But maybe thats because of my bad memory. I dont understand the potential conclusion thing but i guess i like to discuss possibilities?
Could someone give me an real life example of the difference?
Te or Ti?
When i get information i need to order it in my head first in order to think about it. I dont always think before i talk, only if theres a problem or something difficult.
This „Order before thinking“ happens all the time when im learning for school. I can’t just learn out of the book. I need to write the stuff down and order and structure it my own way in order to be able to get it in my head.*
Same when im planning future events. There will always be a point where i write it down and structure it. Like as a kid when i wanted a dog i would write down things like: monthly cost, pros cons, what breed (Would make another plan just for the breed), breeder or adoption,… * i do that all the time with plans for the future although they are unrealistic just like the dog which i knew i wasn’t getting in the next 10 years but i liked to have a structured vision of it no matter how unrealistic. *
I create back up plans before a date. The thing is that i dont necessarily follow that plan, i often improvise but i need a vague plan in the back of my head
That sounds a lot like INTJ but my life isn’t that organized and structured. I am very spontaneous. I dont stick with a plan, im sure i changed the breed of the dog a 1000 times, last month i was sure i wanted a rough collie but now im sure im going to adopt a mutt. if new information comes up i am able to change the plan. I never had strict people in my life, everything my father promised always ended up being different. I am not happy about that because i want control but i learned to deal with it.*
Fe or Fi?
I hate open conflicts or misunderstandings, i always want to fix things. If my sister is crying i want to fix it but not because i feel sorry for her or want to make her happy again but to get rid of a problem.*
I also dont feel emphaty. Never for strangers and very very rarely for my family. The only emotion i occasionally feel is anger but its controllable and i can suppress it fast.
Im not only hiding my emotions from other people but also from myself. Emotions are a weakness to me and i dont want to admit that im vulnerable. I usually use self deprecating humor or cynicism as a shield.
Ill never understand someone crying about something which could be solved rationally.
I hate it when people shut me up and i can’t defend myself with my arguments. i have my own moral and principles based on my own rational thinking which other people would view as cruel.*I consider people who dont share my mindset as stupid unless they prove me otherwise.
Se or Si?
Well since i use Fi id have to use Se. I dont mind changes and id rather learn something new everyday than do the same thing all over again. But im not an adrenaline junkie and im not always doing new things. I spend most of my days at home doing nothing. I feel like somethings missing and i want to go on adventures like in movies but at the moment its unrealistic so i dont do it.
So does this sound like INTJ or something else to you? Am i wrong about some conclusions? Do you need to know anything else in order to tell me what i am?