I apologize for the extremely long post; it's difficult to leave things out. So, please, bear with me...
1) What aspect of your personality made you unsure of your type?
I seem to fluctuate between opposite tendencies depending on my environment, which leads me to much confusion when I try to ponder who I am as an individual. I suppose this could be due to the fact that I'm still developing, but I'm curious anyway.
One is that I like to spend time alone to think, but it doesn't translate into social situations. My mind seems to silence whenever someone else is talking, and I don't really think before speaking, with some exceptions. I'm highly critical at school and often question what people say, so long as I do not fear judgment from them (these people tend to be the ones that come across as confident, stirring, and talented to me, and are often the people I respect but am too shy to approach normally, no matter how much I want to be friends); basically, I'm either reticent or extremely talkative and impulsive with what I say.
2) What do you yearn for in life? Why?
Friends. This, for me, translates to "best friend for forever" for everyone else, it would seem. I don't like all these different "levels" of friends. For me, there is and has truly only been one level, and I've only added on additional layers because people acted hurt whenever they would ask me if I considered them a friend or not. It still hasn't completely taken hold yet; even now, I hesitate when someone asks me if we are friends.
The ability to express myself through art. The significance I place on this is about on par with that I place on bonds. I have always had immense difficulty with telling others about my emotions, not because I can't express myself, but because I can never bring myself to do it - at least not face-to-face. I want to talk to other people about them, but if the stress is enough to make me reach out to another person, I become extremely vague. I think I've become aware of my reasons for this, but I'll cut this off here.
3) Think about a time where you felt like you were at your finest. Tell us what made you feel that way.
I don't even know...Absolutes in questions always cause me to stumble. I have a lofty view of those, and my life just doesn't seem to reach that far. I will say that what immediately came to mind while I was searching for that answer were artistic accomplishments and helping people through emotional problems.
4) What makes you feel inferior?
...I'm not sure what to say. Anything that people are better than me at that isn't completely ridiculous? I guess a big one would be people's relationships with each other. It makes me depressed every time I think about it, since it's something I'm lacking yet place much importance on.
5) What tends to weigh on your decisions? (Do you think about people, pro-cons, how you feel about it, etc.)
I think of everything related to the decision in question first, but I try to look at things objectively. How I feel about it comes in at the end, but at times I place a lot of importance on it if I can't decide between the pros and cons.
Hm, I guess a better explanation would be that I go through everything about it systematically first, then let feelings wreak havoc because I can't decide.
6) When working on a project what is normally your emphasis? Do you like to have control of the outcome?
Everything must be perfect. (Or as close to perfect as time permits.) Control? Dear god, yes. I'm beginning to break out of it, but for a long time, I wasn't able to trust anyone to do things correctly. I'd make myself the final processor of every part of group projects completed outside of class, no matter how much sleep I lost from their procrastination or the agitation that would arise.
7) Describe us a time where you had a lot of fun. How is your memory of it?
That would have to be the cruise around Alaska. Strolling alone around the ship in pleasantly chilly weather with a constant wind, surrounded by a deep, vivid, blue expanse, not having to worry about being separated from everyone else...Bliss.
I absolutely loved the scenery in Alaska, despite the dreary weather at times. Unfortunately, I'm an amateur at photography, so I wasn't able to take the photos I wanted I took quite a few regardless.
8) When you want to learn something new, what feels more natural for you? (Are you more prone to be hands on, to theorize, to memorize, etc)
I'm not sure...Hands-on is fun, but I tend to shy away from doing things out of the ordinary even if they appeal to me.
9) How organized do you think of yourself as?
It depends. General rule is that when things get too out-of-hand, I spend a long time making sure everything is neatly ordered; but as long as I know where the important things are, it doesn't matter how messy things get.
A few examples: my room (including closet and wherever my clothes are) and workspace are messy; all the files on my devices - computer, laptop, phone - are organized, as are the contents of any bag I use and my bookshelf; I organize my coloured pencils and other art supplies periodically.
10) How do you judge new ideas? You try to understand the principles behind it to see if they make sense or do you look for information that supports it?
I try to understand it first. If I'm interested enough in the idea, I look for information that supports it second.
11) You find harmony by making sure everyone is doing fine and belonging to a given group or by making sure that you follow what you believe and being yourself?
I think my nature is to follow what I believe and to be myself, but doing so tends to draw me far from what I desire. I had a nasty habit of conforming to groups develop around late elementary school/early middle school, but it was more of a subtle acquiescence that actually didn't change much.
12) Are you the kind that thinks before speaking or do you speak before thinking? Do you prefer one-on-one communication or group discussions?
I mentioned an answer to the first question already, but I'll expand. If it's not a sensitive issue, I blurt out whatever comes to mind unless my comment may offend someone. (I usually end up saying it anyway, but with a few verbal buffers...) This is to people I'm comfortable being around, though. Like I said, there are people who I can't bring myself to speak around.
I definitely prefer one-on-one communication.
13) Do you jump into action right away or do you like to know where are you jumping before leaping? Does action speaks more than words?
I am not action-oriented. At all. I have this innate fear of doing things or something, even if it's like going camping.
Words are pretty powerful, y'know.
14) It's Saturday. You're at home, and your favorite show is about to start. Your friends call you for a night out. What will you do?
I'd go. Without a doubt. Nobody asks me to go out. (Shows can always be watched online...)
15) How do you act when you're stressed out?
In public? I retreat if it's personal. Otherwise, I complain. I complain a lot.
In private? I draw. I might complain a little somewhere, but it'll just be a sentence or two.
16) What makes you dislike the personalities of some people?
I don't actually hate people. Or, at least, I haven't found someone to hate. There are aspects that I'll dislike, but I won't hate the entire person, no matter how much I might rant or complain about them.
17) Is there anything you really like talking about with other people?
Deep stuff, man. Deep stuff.
And art. Except I don't really have anyone to talk to about that. They all nod or give me one- to two-word responses.
18) What kind of things do pay the least attention to in your life?
Money. I don't think I'm old enough to care, though, and I don't buy a lot of stuff. I guess that also includes commercial products.
I suppose a large portion of Western pop culture as well. I mean, I have to pay some attention to it because that's almost all anyone talks about now, but I might be a tad happier to see it diminish from life.
Politics. Yeah, I care which direction governments go in, but I prefer paying attention to the small life I have. I can connect with myself and things around me, you see. I can't with politics. It's...cold.
19) How do your friends perceive you? What is wrong about their perception? ? What would your friends never say about your personality?
Jolly good question. I'd like the full answer myself.
I suspect they don't think a lot of me. I'm just the smart, snarky, artistic person. Nothing that isn't surface level.
One friend told me, quite casually, that she didn't know a lot about me because I kept to myself. Another, after I let slip a bit of my internal thoughts and let her read some of the stuff I wrote, remarked that I turned into a completely different person.
But the thing is, I don't talk to those two a lot anymore. I don't know what most of the people I see on a daily basis think of me.
My closest friend thinks I am extremely honest. Whenever she needs to talk to me about something, she believes that she can always trust me because I don't lie about what I think. I don't disagree with her; the only lies I can tell are trivial ones that might get me out of a scolding, or the occasional partial lies - "I'm just tired", "my contacts are just bothering me", etc. I have a hard time keeping my mouth shut unless it's about emotions (she's one person I'm able to talk to, though), and lying to cover things up doesn't automatically come to me as an option.
I'm not sure about now, but my friends used to think I was random and weird (in a crazy way). I was (still am, though less so) spontaneous in middle school; but then, I was less concerned about my life. I didn't get depressed that often. I had people to talk to and have fun with, even if it was only one or two people.
My closest friends still think I'm a little off (but then, we three think we're all like that ). I met them both online, though, so I'm more open to them.
I'm not sure what they'd never say...
20) You got a whole day to do whatever you like. What kind of activities do you feel like doing?
I'd like to visit a scenic place where I can be alone and enjoy myself, take pictures, think, admire nature, and maybe get a few drawings in. Away from the world for a day.
I got INFP from PerC's test, but I've also gotten some of the other Ixxx's as well.
Thank you for reading. :)