do any other enfp's feel like they can see through other people sometimes? like you can see what makes them tick..what keeps them going and what ALL of their week points are?
lately ive felt like after only a short conversation with people i know enough about them to verbally destroy them. Every time i find an interesting piece of information that reflects someones insecurities its like a little bell goes off and a voice in my head tells me to hang on to that info in case i ever need to hurt them.
It wasnt always like this. In fact it only started once i got to college and felt the need to defend myself against some grade A assholes. I hadnt even occured to me that i was capable of being mean, much less mean on the level that i stooped to. It was like no matter how much anyone could hurt me i could always hurt them more. I could find the ****** in everyones armor and use it should the need arise. The jerk i directed most of my newfound powers against definitely deserved it but i almost felt like i was addicted to hurting him sometimes. he was a very mean, slightly witty intj with fairly decent intelligence and i would trounce him verbally on nearly every encounter. we couldnt help but see each other in classes and clubs but Sometimes we'd both intentionally seek the other out just so we could engage in some old fashioned smack down. it was never a lighthearted thing though, it was an all out let me see how much i can destroy you kind of thing. He only got physically violent in return twice and both times i neutralized him with words alone. I made him cry a few times and it wasnt until i felt like i had actually crushed him, mentally, emotionally etc etc that i felt i was capable of moving on.
this case was a bit extreeme i realize and there are tons of tiny details i've decided to ignore so as to keep the thread from being too long before everyone leaves of boredom.
i wonder if the ability to see others insecurities is perhaps reflection on how we are able to see ourselves in others or more of our awareness of our surroundings
there was another time in middle school when i had finally had enough of a girl bullying me. we were just about to graduate so i felt no fear in telling her that she was a miserable excuse for a human being. taht she would never get anywhere in life. i also said that the only hope she had in life was to get knocked up and flunk out of highschool and live the rest of her life in the ghettos.
i couldnt remeber when she had started crying but within teh same day she got held back in the 8th grade. by sophomore year she was pregnant and i have no idea if she ever graduated or where she lives but i feel like either i was so in tune with where she was headed that i was able to predict that years in advance OR i made it happen through will power. the latter being fun but unlikely.
its been a year or so since ive had to mentally destroy anybody but i feel like im still getting prepared for it at every waking moment. All these nasty things are on the tip of my tongue ...
i know this was long. if you stayed you deserve a hug
so im just wondering if this is something common...can any other enfps relate or this more of an entp thing?
lately ive felt like after only a short conversation with people i know enough about them to verbally destroy them. Every time i find an interesting piece of information that reflects someones insecurities its like a little bell goes off and a voice in my head tells me to hang on to that info in case i ever need to hurt them.
It wasnt always like this. In fact it only started once i got to college and felt the need to defend myself against some grade A assholes. I hadnt even occured to me that i was capable of being mean, much less mean on the level that i stooped to. It was like no matter how much anyone could hurt me i could always hurt them more. I could find the ****** in everyones armor and use it should the need arise. The jerk i directed most of my newfound powers against definitely deserved it but i almost felt like i was addicted to hurting him sometimes. he was a very mean, slightly witty intj with fairly decent intelligence and i would trounce him verbally on nearly every encounter. we couldnt help but see each other in classes and clubs but Sometimes we'd both intentionally seek the other out just so we could engage in some old fashioned smack down. it was never a lighthearted thing though, it was an all out let me see how much i can destroy you kind of thing. He only got physically violent in return twice and both times i neutralized him with words alone. I made him cry a few times and it wasnt until i felt like i had actually crushed him, mentally, emotionally etc etc that i felt i was capable of moving on.
this case was a bit extreeme i realize and there are tons of tiny details i've decided to ignore so as to keep the thread from being too long before everyone leaves of boredom.
i wonder if the ability to see others insecurities is perhaps reflection on how we are able to see ourselves in others or more of our awareness of our surroundings
there was another time in middle school when i had finally had enough of a girl bullying me. we were just about to graduate so i felt no fear in telling her that she was a miserable excuse for a human being. taht she would never get anywhere in life. i also said that the only hope she had in life was to get knocked up and flunk out of highschool and live the rest of her life in the ghettos.
i couldnt remeber when she had started crying but within teh same day she got held back in the 8th grade. by sophomore year she was pregnant and i have no idea if she ever graduated or where she lives but i feel like either i was so in tune with where she was headed that i was able to predict that years in advance OR i made it happen through will power. the latter being fun but unlikely.
its been a year or so since ive had to mentally destroy anybody but i feel like im still getting prepared for it at every waking moment. All these nasty things are on the tip of my tongue ...
i know this was long. if you stayed you deserve a hug
so im just wondering if this is something common...can any other enfps relate or this more of an entp thing?
