I don't know if this helps but I have these incredibly lucid day dreams usually involving killing people violently. And I have them often. Usually they'll come really fast and are spawned by someone walking entirely too slow or driving like an idiot or generally doing stuff that I find repulsive. I know this comes from frustration though. I guess as long as you're not suicidal it's all right. If you become so then let someone know...

 

Nop. I however rant about living forever...in a joking manner. well, most of the time I don't joke, people think its a joke so i just go along with it. idiots

 

It's funny that you say that. I used to read a lot on Kurzweil and had a stage where that was usually the topic that I ended up pondering at the end of my thought trains. I'm pretty sure this stage is when my family decided I was crazy.

 

Only if something I don't want to do, but have to comes up. I say it in a kind of, "Kill me now or I'll kill myself" way. A lot of people I know do that. To my knowledge, none of them are suicidal. I'm certainly not. It's just exaggerating a dire situation.

I have had very in-depth discussions with my IxTJ and unknown type friends about how we would kill ourselves. It was a purely intellectual debate but my INFP friend was a mixture between :shocked: :sad: "Why would you even think about that?!" I argued the case for the gun. If you shoot yourself in the right place, it's a very fast death. Someone is bound to have heard the gun shot and find your body. Granted, it's messy, but it's not me that has to clean it up. To me, it's the least objectionable form of suicide. My unknown-type friend suggested hanging. The issues with that are you wouldn't be able to get high up enough indoors for it to break your neck, so you'd just choke to death. That'd be horrible. Given that I don't actually want to kill myself, I don't want to put myself in pain either. Choking is painful. Very painful. Eurgh. Not pills painful (a universally agreed no-no) but still.

 

I personally don't joke about it, except when someone suggests something and I drop a hint that I'd rather kill myself than engage in the mentioned activity. Also, I find George Carlin to be hilarious on this subject. Seriously, that man was a genius. Watch his 'Life is worth losing', if you haven't already. Won't be disappointed, I guarantee you that.

 

George was the s**t!!!

 

Yeah. I do that a lot too. Me and my INFP friend often make a gun with our hands and point it to our head to show disapproval of something. Ironically we both suffer from panic attacks/depersonlization sometimes and have dads fighting depression.

I also often say things like "It just makes me heavily depressed, man." and simply "I want to die." (Although I say that last one more in my head to myself when I feel worried/depressed/anxious.)
I never really mean those things... It's strange. I don't really want to die, but sometimes I feel like it yeah. Kinda spooky.

 

I have noticed that I might use it to express distaste, while not actually considering it. I don't suffer from depression though I do have OCD and have been at points where I have been mentally locked down. From my point of view INTP's (unless in serious circumstances) won't actually consider suicide, but it almost seems like, I see it as a comfort knowing that if everything is too much to handle there is always that path to freedom. I have never accually considered it myself, but I occasionally have visions of it which are always disturbing.

 

This is my experience almost exactly. I have OCD as well.

 

I bet that I can guess what inspired this. ;P

I like to ask people if they will kill me for 20 dollars, just to gauge their sense of humor or incite some sort of interesting reaction. Although deep down I know its my contrived cry for help and understanding. I don't know why I can never just outright say that I'm frustrated with my life.

 

"What did you do this weekend?"

"I proved that 1=0, and thus logic is false. Then I shot myself."

 

Do any of you have a habit of joking about killing yourself? I find that I somewhat regularly do this. I generally feel fine, but I believe that part of this comes from being frustrated (somewhere deep down perhaps) and wanting to do it, but perhaps not consciously. I don't know exactly what to make of it. All I know is that I focus on suicide regularly, even though I don't want to kill myself and I am not severely depressed.

INTPs?

Ya I think about it a bit too often, usually when Im frustrated and need some sort ofmental stimulation. I like to imagine people's reactions. Is that creepy?

 

Not unless I'm at a support group where it would present itself as comical.

 

Yes.
And it's gotten me into a lot of trouble at school. :dry:

 

Not really a suicide joke...but I called my mum while I was out one day. She wanted to end the conversation because she was busy. I said, "This could be the last time you speak to me. Are you sure you want to end the conversation so soon? You never know..." That upset her a bit.

 

sure! that is just one of my daily phrases! i will just point out how desperate i want to die if my mom didnt pick me up at 5 o'clock.
and sometimes i discuss my proper suicide plan, with a friend that will thought it was hilarious as i am. we both are freaks
but if other people here it, especially with a strong feeling preference they would just go berserk and force me to go to therapy. and it so hard to convince them that i was joking. so i've been to numerous therapist, nothing results from hours of conversations about motivating shit and self-awareness skill. in the end, i learn to kept my aberrant humor for my own.

LOL! your not alone mate! who cares if you are 'severely depressed'? they are anti-depressant that will work nicely on those 'gloomy days'.
keep that abnormality, that is what makes you special.

 

Well, I did come up with the best possible mass suicide scenario. You would take about 300 people that want to kill themselves, take them on an airplane, and they would all jump down into their own death right above some big city, so that it would rain dead bodies, and everyone in that city would be freaked out.

 

Thanks for the laugh dude.

I'm not superstitious but I won't take my chances. If plants can grow better with positive reinforcement, who knows what might happen .

There was a time while I was working at a pizzeria starting at 5pm and I started begging to be killed on my way to work, because I felt like they owned me and my day was just a countdown until 5pm.

Yup lame story.

 

Whenever I've had a 'meh' day I generally tell my co-worker that hopefully this time around I'll get run over by a car on my way to McDonalds.

So far I always ended up telling them that just no one seemed to be interested in running me over upon my return to the office.

 

I use to joke about killing myself, but I grew out of it.
Now I joke about killing and mutilating everyone else.

 

I don't joke about killing myself but I do make a lot of jokes about death, injury, and danger. A couple of months ago at an amusement park I was at the top of a ferris wheel with two friends and they got pissed when I pointed out that "If we were to fall for some reason, we would definitely die."

 

That description is indeed spot-on.

I sometimes visualize myself dying in places where I am at that moment. I'll visualize myself getting hit by a car, and imagining what those last moments would be like. Or visualize myself sitting in a bathtub shooting my brains out, how that would feel (if I would feel it), and how it'd look.

It's only when I'm in a bad mood though. And I don't actually consider doing those things. But it does feel calming in a really messed up way, yeah. Just having the freedom of possibly doing that. I consider suicide a little narrow-minded sometimes, actually. And I've never felt as bad as to think it'd never get better.

I don't have OCD though. I don't know how that would have something to do with this.

 

Yesh, all the time. My family keeps a calendar on our fridge so last month I put "Commit Suicide - 4pm" on one of the dates. They did not appreciate this.

 

Not really, I dislike thinking about suicide, such opt-out is not existent in my system.

I do relate with @billymark though, when I am really frustrated about someone I'd enter an exhaustive meditation-mode in which I think of all possible ways of taking revenge.

 

I don't. I've gotten bored after thinking up of ways of creatively killing myself. Now I just joke about annihilating the human race and going about it in fun and interesting ways.

 

I get worried when I hear people make such jokes.

 

Not so much suicide, but I'd justify procrastinating on some task by saying, "Let's do that last. Maybe we'll get lucky and get hit by a car first." Don't do that so much now, since it disturbs the girlfriend. Yeah, it'd get me out of doing the chore, but then my girlfriend would kick my ass! Sorta takes the joy out of it, y'know? Death is as light as a feather, duty is as heavy as a mountain....