Thanks. Yes this is what i'm afraid of, i'm not sure so i guess there's only one way to find out really and try to ease off them slowly, see how i feel. Also talk to my doctor about all of this.I do think they have affected my sex drive, numbed me more, i'm just don't feel 'myself'. Plus, i'm not majorly depressed right now, i do get enjoyment out of things, the sunshine, music, friends, good foods etc. I honestly think the only thing this medication does for me is numb me, it numbs the pain of things, but like, really numbs things to the extent that i can't feel anything. I think these are worse than the citalopram i've been on, if i see myself getting worse when i come off these, i'm going to go back on the citalopram, or trying something else i think. I'm just fed up and i feel like i want my old self back but i'm really scared what will happen when i come off them, if i will go worse.
"There’s enormous variation among people when they stop antidepressants. A person whose depression kicked in after a major life tragedy may do OK without drugs once life stabilizes. A person whose depression came out of the blue is likely to be at higher risk of chronic depression. And within all that, there’s basic biology — people react differently to drugs and to withdrawing from drugs."
The reason i started taking the anti depressants in the first place was to calm my neurotic behavour with my then girlfriend. I was overreacting, over emotional, basically struggling to trust but now i realize our personality where just not compatible she couldn't attend to my needs, and i drove her away with the way i was. But i don't remember feeling 'depressed' I was not really majorly happy, but, i was struggling with an on and off girlfriend, problems with my mum, problems with my bi polar dad, being unemployed etc. After i started to take Citalopram, it did give me a sort of jolt to go into finding work, i found a job, but, the problems persisted with my girlfriend until i decided to go upto 20mg. After that, i couldn't feel anything i couldn't overreact or go out stupid girly emotional over stuff because they calmed me down, numbed me. I didn't feel myself thou. With the Setraline, the not feeling myself, has gone worse. I honestly done think the depression i had was 'something wrong with my brain' I was circumstantial, and to do with my personality.
Right now thou, i'm still out of work, which isn't doing me any good mulling over stuff all day. But, i'm just wondering if the anti d's are now affecting that, because, i have zero motivation. My beliefs about work, being in work where different then, that has changed for the better, i now know how much i benefit from being in work, and how important it is for my future and, even, general mental health
I guess the only way to try is giving it a go? Coming off them slowly and see how things change?
I've been on them now for approx 13-14 weeks and having these issues -
Lack of motivation
Sex drive decreased
Lack of appetite
Sleeping for long periods (over 12 hours)
Sad mood
Anxiety
On Edge
OCD symptoms
Depersonalization
Procrastination
Low energy
Now i'm scared of trying anything else, i hate feeling like a Zombie on them. My doctor i feel doesn't really know this medication properly, and what i need