Here is a day in the life of a self-preserving 4 (true story).
Wakes up, feels delirious but supercharged. Stumbles over to the computer screen. Sees an empty wine bottle. Gradually remembers how last night he lost everything to some impulsive drunken bet, and uninstalled the poker application swearing the silly game off.... yet this morning he is rejuvenated.
Without thinking twice he re-downloads the online gambling game from a company that's probably operating illegally and based in some remote island.
He's fired up; determined to win; he will not walk out a loser. He drinks a red bull and starts playing.
5 more deposits and another full cup of coffee later... his credit card starts getting rejected. But he laughs it off without a hint of remorse.
What's the point of remorse when the only person I am hurting is myself?
It's only a bad beat!
With a fuming resentment for the meaninglessness of money he decides to go the mall and spend some more. The sterile, spammy light rock music played at the clothing shop infuriates him, and he wonders why they insist on playing such irritating small-list radio tunes at every department store. After exhausted from wandering around in the mall, he gets back in the car.
He has a vague notion that maybe he should go to the gym... but meh, there's not enough time. We'll save the pleasure of a workout for later!
He scrounges around his drawer and finds a pipe. Grabbing a paper clip, he bends it out of shape and starts desperately scraping the bowl. Eventually, he forms a nice little resin ball.
He steps outside, and with the blazing sun bearing down upon him, lights the resin and sucks out every inch of leftover THC. His lungs have seemingly endless capacity and he holds it in forever -- he is good at tuning out physical pain -- the possessed desire to get high outweighs the signals sent from his body to his brain.
Then, he goes to 7-11 and gets a beer. He drinks it, then he takes a shower, shaves and spruces himself up. Then he drinks another red bull and heads off to work!
Finally after work, he goes downtown to training at another job that he's only starting... he's not even sure he wants this job, he's only testing his charisma and hireability. He's surprised at the friendly interactions he has with people and always wonders how long it will be before they find out how much of a scumbag he really is.
All the while, due to being so bloated with caffeine and alcohol he really hasn't eaten much at all today!
Endlessly riding his magic carpet of elation, he arrives home, pulls out his guitar, fires up Pandora and starts playing along to blues rock radio while simultaneously reading about the Black Plague on Wikipedia (did you know that in the Middle Ages, people were so stupid they exterminated cats because they believed they were "familiars" to witches, and therefore wicked and evil... and therefore there were no cats to control the rat population arriving on ships, and this caused the Black Plague?). He does not feel lonely, and he does not feel hungry... although these are probably the needs he must attend to. Yet there is no slowdown in sight... the greatest terror is boredom.
He is numbed out to his true needs... instead, he will answer any impulse to feel alive... and everything he does is surefire.
Dauntless... or just stupid?